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I have somethine I must say; ....I will explain it
Topic Started: Jul 12 2007, 03:15 AM (475 Views)
Kuroku E" Nero
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I haven't been exactly acting my true self lately. I am naturally pretty normal. It's just with my dad losing an eye recently (around the time I joined here), I have had to do a lot more work, while my dad continues to get his cancer and tumor checked out at the hospital, and my mom is taking it quite hard as well, so she starts thinking nonsense, as for me, I have to make sure my dad doesn't break down in sadness, sometimes while my dad is at the hospital I have to stay home and try my best to act as a parental figure to my brother, so this is why I act like this, I just can't act like I did before when knowing that my dad could die at any time because of his eye, this cancer might grow and infect his brain, I just can't act normal knowing this. every now and then I might try to act as how I used to act before, but to tell the truth the reason I didn't say this before was because I thought that this would cause a disturbance and I will be hated by most of the members, I am not naming any. Well I must thank you for reading this.

Also even with this cancer and growing tumor my dad continues to run his company and work his life away. He explained it all, if he doesn't continue running his company we will go bankrupt and lose our home. My mother's job it's exactly the hugest way to make money either.

So overall it's stress that's making me act like this.

If I eventually get used to everything and maybe get a summer job or two... My family might be able to make it through, and we can continue living where we live now... or maybe an average sized apartment.

I am not expecting anyone at all to "feel sorry," for me, I honestly just wanted to tell you all what's going on, that's it. Please understand me.

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First off, if a Mod can move this out of the spam section. It seems less of a spam topic and more of a serious one.

Honestly, having just made it through a family event (which I'm sure some of you may have seen but didn't know) I can sympathize with you to the level of stress and how it makes people act and respond to things. Though I do have to say, I wouldn't worry about reactions on the internet, if you have done anything it hasn't been serious if at all noticable. I think it was very honorable to stand up and tell us about it and I respect your choice to do so. In a similar situation I would've likely not have done that, so you've surpassed me on that level. All in all, you're a good guy regardless of what others (though I believe my thoughts here are shared in the community) may think, because I haven't seen anything wrong with how you do things at all. In all truthfullness, if you're having a stressfull time, just let us know and if you need someone to talk to or just to blow off steam, just let them know and I'm sure most people will be fine with it. All in all, since you're going through a stressful time, worry about whats important and not too much about the zaniness of boktai and some of the forum goers. Some of us can be serious at times and understanding.

Just my thoughts.
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Jul 12 2007, 03:23 AM
First off, if a Mod can move this out of the spam section.  It seems less of a spam topic and more of a serious one.

Honestly, having just made it through a family event (which I'm sure some of you may have seen but didn't know) I can sympathize with you to the level of stress and how it makes people act and respond to things.  Though I do have to say, I wouldn't worry about reactions on the internet, if you have done anything it hasn't been serious if at all noticable.  I think it was very honorable to stand up and tell us about it and I respect your choice to do so.  In a similar situation I would've likely not have done that, so you've surpassed me on that level.  All in all, you're a good guy regardless of what others (though I believe my thoughts here are shared in the community) may think, because I haven't seen anything wrong with how you do things at all.  In all truthfullness, if you're having a stressfull time, just let us know and if you need someone to talk to or just to blow off steam, just let them know and I'm sure most people will be fine with it.  All in all, since you're going through a stressful time, worry about whats important and not too much about the zaniness of boktai and some of the forum goers.  Some of us can be serious at times and understanding.

Just my thoughts.

Thank you for understanding. I'm just glad some people can understand this, it actually took me a few days to think about it, I just didn't think people would understand and just go on calling me emo and liar and other things like that that annoy me... a lot, I had to think a lot about reactions before actually posting it, or telling anyone about it. Thank you again.

Also I just thought if I am to put it into the spam section, it is more safer than the general discussion forum, I was sure someone would disbelieve me and report me having my thread moved here.
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I think it's good that you explained things,too.I may not have noticed anything different about you,but others might have so it's good that you explained it.Even though you said not to feel sorry for you,I do.It must suck to have this happen,but just look on the positive side and keep believing in your dad and the hospital and everything will be ok.Also,just like Phantom said,we're always here for you in case you need someone to talk to.Besides you're not the only one feeling sad,I finally fell in love for the first time and the girl I'm with is special to me,but now she's moving to Tennesse for 2 or 3 years and I'm pretty depressed too,but I don't show it for the sake of my love ones and I'm looking on the bright side,like you should too
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Kuroku E" Nero
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Jul 12 2007, 03:34 AM
I think it's good that you explained things,too.I may not have noticed anything different about you,but others might have so it's good that you explained it.Even though you said not to feel sorry for you,I do.It must suck to have this happen,but just look on the positive side and keep believing in your dad and the hospital and everything will be ok.Also,just like Phantom said,we're always here for you in case you need someone to talk to.Besides you're not the only one feeling sad,I finally fell in love for the first time and the girl I'm with is special to me,but now she's moving to Tennesse for 2 or 3 years and I'm pretty depressed too,but I don't show it for the sake of my love ones and I'm looking on the bright side,like you should too

I came to this forum like this, this forum was all about Boktai, it may sound corny and all, but whenever I played Boktai... I felt way better, it's there quotes, the sun will shine tomorow, wherever there is darkness there is light, I thought if I stayed here I will fdeel the same way as when I play Boktai, it worked slightly. I understand your situation as well, something similar happened to me, I won't get into that just yet. Well I have to go for the night now, I will check back on the posts regarding this thread tomorow.
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HAHAHA!!! You think that it's that bad?

Sorry, but there are...

A) Cornier things in life. I should know. I'd say them, but there's always the risk of being watched. Exile, C, Parents, that weird kid who always knocks on my door and I know belive taps my phone (yeah, I'm that paranoid, I don't act/look it though), you name it.

B) I feel your pain. My Dad has tons of medical problems. My Mom has had cancer two, possibly three times if something checks the wrong way. I myself have my share of problems that my parents don't even know about. And some they do.

C) Video games hope? It kept me from suicide for 6 years. It's hard to belive, considering my age. 13-6=7. 7 years of non-suicidal thoughts. Games, my only true friends and (refuse to type it) ...... kept me sane for those awful ongoing years. Yup, it's just them, the voices, and games that keep me sane. I wonder if the insanity of voices keeps me from going further...?

D) you name a problem, I've seen it, had it, or other it. Go ahead, name some!
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Wow, that explains a heck of a lot. You need to get stuff like this off your chest, it will make you feel a lot better in the end. And sorry about all the things I said about you being emo and whatnot. I've gotten really sick of people who act that way, so I tend to be less than kind to anyone who acts remotly emo around me.
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It's alright now Copy X, my dad got his new glass eye the other day! ...But he has to stay in the hospital a lot more often, his cancer is spreading faster and his eye socket is slouching more downward... it sucks really, now Gamma, I understand that you have a lot more stuff to handle, but imagine this happening, you are sitting on your computer chair talking with 5 friends, when all of a sudden your dad collapses in the halls and is taken to the hospital for weeks upon weeks, your mom begins crying and your little brother won't leave his room, being the oldest you are expected to take care of everyone, then imagine being void of power until your father comes home and continues to push himself to the limit, just to get your power back, when he does, he collapses again, and the cycle continues like that, one day he might not even come from the hospital.

the other day it was confirmed that he has diabetes and my mom might also get it, both my grandfathers died of what my father has at moment. My mom bearly eats anymore in fear of having these diseases. It sure sucks... I am telling you this to show why I might act so "emo" a lot, but in truth, i act emotionless and calm a lot, not "emo" alright now?
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Dude, that must really stink. Nobody in my family has any illnesses, and my friends are all fine, but for me, I've had to move 3 times, and lose tons of friends. Just hang in, and eventually, the sun WILL rise. :soldjango:
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