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| Adena Moren | Feb 6 2008, 05:04 PM |
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The other woman's face made it clear that she was not overly pleased with Adena's response, and that she completely understood what Adena had left unsaid. Her cheery smile slipped slightly, she did not look angry, she simply looked...well she actually looked quite a bit like an Aes Sedai: her face so trained only to show the emotion she chose that it stayed even when she did was not thinking about it. When she spoke, her voice was calm, but certainly not as welcoming and kind as it had been a few moments before. Clearly, despite the fact that this woman had seemed very understanding and welcoming, she was just as illogically loyal to the Tower, and intolerantly unaccepting of anyone who was not as every other Accepted this place housed. This was one of the very reasons she did not like this place: people who decided they knew you after two or three minutes, and who were completely close-minded on nearly every subject about which they were informed. Not that Adena could very well say that to Farina though, the woman may have wanted some company enough to ignore her first stupid comment, but the second would likely earn her some kind of punishment. Again she was faced with not knowing what to say. She had seemed honest when she said she wanted to hear why Adena did not like the Tower, but in order to explain, Adena had to talk about the people who were here- one of which Farina undoubtedly was. She suppressed a sigh, and wondered what she should say. A small part of her wanted to revert back to the way she had been for the greater part of her time here; there were childish remarks and angry insults waiting just below the surface of her mind. But no, that was not her anymore, was it? Now she was committed to looking forward and not back, her life here had nothing to do with that idea that Aes Sedai were Darkfriends, or that she was the noblest lady among the novices and Accepted. She was not sure if that was a completely true fact, but Adena was quite certain that very few people outranked the daughter of a very powerful House. That thought, though she had not considered it for so long, led Adena to a comment that she could perhaps make without incurring punishment. "I don't believe I do speak like an Aes Sedai, I just choose my words carefully," she said, careful to keep a tone of respect in her voice, she was not trying to insult Farina; she was just answering her questions. The fact that this woman ranked a step above her would not have mattered to Adena a year ago, but a lot had changed in the past year, and now Adena realized that a few bands of color and a simple ring were enough to keep Adena treading lightly. Or would she have been so polite to a novice as well? Perhaps not quite as careful, but Adena decided that she would certainly be better to a novice who made that comment now than she would have been a year ago. "In my experience," Adena continued, "Aes Sedai are manipulative and serve others only when it helps them achieve their own ends. They are close-minded, and I think I can do better with my life than having it controlled by what 'the Tower' says is necessary or right. I come from a powerful House, I know what it is to be notable and powerful, my father is exactly that, and I will admit that my time in the Tower has not been in vain. I have learned a lot about the world and myself, and one of the things I have learned is that power and rank are not everything. I want to leave the Tower to do something better with my life, although I don't know what that will be yet." Adena's voice grew stronger as she spoke, and by the end her voice was more confident than she had planned. As she finished speaking, she realized what she said. For the first time, she had voiced what she had learned over the past year, and only now did she realize how much she had changed. For years after coming to the Tower, she had defined herself as a Lady, and had believed that everyone was beneath her. Now, she finally realized that the title "Lady" did not matter as much as she had thought, in that, the Aes Sedai were right. Instead of leaving it at that though, they made themselves the ones who were better than others, which was just as untrue as the belief they had rubbed out of her. Adena mentally shook herself, what was it about this woman or this conversation that had her reflecting so much on how she had been before? What she should be focused on was whether she was making Farina angry, and what sort of punishment she would be earning. She looked at Farina's face, watching for an emotion, and waited. |
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