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Rant topic is for Rants 2; More Redundancy
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Topic Started: Sep 15 2012, 06:20 PM (14,398 Views)
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Zsword
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Jan 25 2014, 02:11 PM
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*phew* Well, I'm glad to see a thing I started actually blossom into something, it helps take the edge off what I'm about to say, buuuuut...
For The sake of it... I'm done. I don't even know anymore. I just, fucking, don't. My life is at an end, there is nothing I can do anymore, anytime I try to apply myself, to work myself up to be better, it just gets thrown back into my face and told that it's/I'm not good enough. After SIXTY FUCKING job applications, I have not received so much as an interview, 3 job fairs with no call back. Why? I don't know, I'm a 19 year old Caucasian male, with a high-school education, easily 120+ IQ, and perfectly clean criminal history. Why the fuck can't even so much as get a part time job pushing carts for freaking Walmart? No matter what I try, no matter what I do, it all pushes up daisies. I can't even fucking further my education because any grants/scholarships that branch off of my school are all fucking athletics based. I've tried fucking everything, and it doesn't even get so much as a 'woopdy do'. I don't even know what to do anymore. There's nothing for me to do.
I just, I don't fucking don't... I don't even.... like... I don't...
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Alteiriaa
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Jan 29 2014, 04:56 AM
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arrrrrrgh >fair warning, a couple of swears below<
Spoiler: click to toggle Go into work today, get into trouble because I'm not a fucking mindreader and didn't predict that there was going to be a bunch of bottles for the dayshift to wash, and now I have to have someone watching me do my job because CLEARLY I can't even do that right. The people who have to keep an eye on me are just as confused and stuff as I am about this entire situation, I left 2 sets of bottles, and I'm expected to know what comes during setup when I'm at home and in bed, wtf. (In case you wonder, I work in a lab, testin' yo beefs.) I understand that 8 pots of media is a lot, yes, buuuut if I'm not there and nightshift is too busy to clean it, guess who it falls to, boss? Yes, daytime media staff. It is not my problem. It is not like I leave them this amount every day. If there is that amount every day, it's your responcibility to HIRE MORE STAFF instead of blaming someone not there because your son has to do more work, holy shit.
Also worth noting, I'm far from a strong individual, both physicly and mentally, I will take things personally when shouted at in person, people scare the crap out of me and rasing your voice reaaaaally doesn't help! Ohh, yes! And my other condition that makes my chest hurt? The other thing the doctors never figured out? Yep, made worse by emotion! BOSS KNOWS THIS. STILL talks to me like that anyway. Then she takes off, leaving me a angry (and later weepy, and throbby, and hurty) mess.
Know how to talk to your staff, or quickly find yourself with less, ya know. who am I kidding I don't have the balls to quit. I hurt, hopefully sleep will help fix it, however temperarily...
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Speedy
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Jan 31 2014, 09:25 AM
Post #413
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Fairly sure I've given up.
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Probably going to get some backlash from this, but..
Donations ...I never donate for charity. I haven't EVER donated anything to charity. Okay, I mean, I could count what little money they got from me during Humble Bundle sales but let's face it, 33% out of an average of $10 spread over multiple charities..?
..This basically comes from the fact that we've never had much money. I'm literally the one person in my family right now who has money, and I've basically paid for over 70% of the dinners in the past TWO YEARS. This is also why I've stopped asking for commissions, and why me buying birthday gifts over Steam has changed to 'pick something from my inventory'.
Ofcourse, that technically only excuses me for said two years, wouldn't it? I won't lie, I'm kinda selfish at times. I buy games at full price while the same money could've gone towards a charity. But I like to see myself as someone who still does good. Just not by paying money. I'm the kind of guy who sits behind a computer basically all day long, whether it is at school, working on schoolwork, or at home playing a game or working on a project of my own- and with my own funds, my own time, I try to help others.
I set up extra subdomains on my website, I provide people with a space to work with, I give people the games I have in my inventory- it's all small steps born from something I already had, but why isn't that enough? You think I don't realize I should donate? But when money is scarce, I LIKE to sometimes give myself a boost. I don't want to wallow in misery and when money comes around it isn't 'hey, let's help someone else', it's 'yes, gonna get this little thing for me'. It's selfish, but it's something I need to get through the day.
It breaks my heart to have people coming by with those donation boxes or whatever they're called and having to tell them that we don't have anything to donate.. while in the next room over, my PC is running with the game I bought yesterday, and my Playstation 3, Xbox 360 and Wii waiting anxiously for me to remove the dust off of them and play some damn games on 'em.
..I've known people who lost the fight with cancer. I know people who're walking around with cancer right now.. And if I ever win some lottery or become rich out of my own volition, chances are that I'll donate large quantities of money. I mean, I can easily miss it then.
Right now, though, that 1 Euro that they want can be the difference between me collapsing out of stress and misery or being happy and being able to carry on.
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JBRam
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Jan 31 2014, 12:19 PM
Post #414
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Don't play with fire, kids.
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This Star Won't Go Out Once upon a time, I was an avid poster at another forum. One of the mods there was a really nice girl who was funny and a great contributor. One day, we learned that she had cancer and was going to a doctor regularly. She tried to pass it off to most of us as simple doctors visits and for the longest time, the only people who knew were the admin and the other mods.
Then something changed. The admin got word that this sweet and funny girl who told us she had a fatal illness was actually lying to us the whole time. Instead of going to doctor's visits regularly, she was actually going to court dates. Turns out, she was charged with attempted murder of her ex's girlfriend. Because she was now sentenced and in jail, she could no longer participate online.
But you know, most of us would have supported her and even forgiven her for her brush with the law. However, when we found out that this whole time, she was doing something so heartless and debased as to PRETEND to have cancer, to tug at our heartstrings and use a disease that legitimately affects thousands of people daily... the entire community was irate. Furious. They hated everything about this girl. Years later, people would spit her name in disgust.
My aunt has terminal cancer. She is going to die. There is nothing anyone can do about it. She is super depressed, and her entire family are starting to pull away from her, to distance themselves so they won't be as hurt when she passes. Sure, we held a benefit supper. And sure, it brought in a few hundred dollars, maybe even a couple thousand. But that doesn't begin to touch the cost of it all.
My grandmother had thoracic cancer. She lost her voicebox because of it. She has to use a special instrument to talk, and we still have trouble understanding her half the time. This has isolated her within her own family. It made it so she could barely communicate with anyone.
Cancer is real. It hurts so many people around them for a long time. That girl I mentioned? Her screenname was Pandora. Years later, I can talk to any one of my friends from that site and mention her name, and people will remember and seethe in hatred. If I ever found out we had a Pandora... I would not be happy.
This all to mention a book: This Star Won't Go Out. It's the memoirs of a girl named Esther Grace Earl. She was a moderator and major contributor for a forum and for years, she hid her illness. She didn't want to make others upset over her. She just wanted to live her life as full as she could. I highly recommend this book to anyone who has ever had a brush with cancer, or if you want to read a story of courage and real life being a bitch.
Cancer affects so many people, but those who have it shoulder the burden and carry on. They spend all their time with those they love the most: their family. Money runs out, they no longer have the luxury of spending time with friends, and half the time, those friends abandon them in order to distance themselves or out of awareness of their own mortality. Cancer often takes years to work its evil, spreading throughout every important part of one's body like a parasite. But once in a while, you get a bright star like Esther. The memory of people like her is what makes it worth going on for the rest of us. This Star Won't Go Out because we refuse to allow it.
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Retro
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Jan 31 2014, 12:43 PM
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The Impossible Scientist!
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I'm so sorry to hear about your aunt, JB. I know what it's like to lose people to cancer, as it has affected several of my close friends and family members, and has even claimed a few them in the process. It's never nice to lose people to cancer, and I can't even begin to imagine how I'd react if I was ever diagnosed with cancer.
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JBRam
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Jan 31 2014, 12:56 PM
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Don't play with fire, kids.
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If I was diagnosed, I know I wouldn't share it around to everyone I met. I'd tell a few very close people. Possibly wouldn't mention it online at all. Cancer is a supremely personal thing. Being told you're dying isn't something one normally shares with the world.
But you know, if I had cancer, asides from needing to find health insurance fast, I would be ok with it. I've had a pretty decent life and seen a lot of great things. I would hate the idea that my kid would grow up without a dad, but I know he'll be okay with his mom. The important thing is to live in the moment. The future will get here when it does.
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Silverpraetor
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May 7 2014, 01:59 PM
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The bored mutt
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I hate people in general.
Long story short, my mom's dog got hit by a truck.
They ended up taking him to a good vet's place (out of state college if I recall right) to try and help him out. When they finally got the chance to look at him, they told my mom it would cost her $10,000 to operate. This is after she paid $3,500 just to take him there. Like... I realize.... but fucking hell.
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Naku Nyame
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May 7 2014, 03:15 PM
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The changed Naku
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- May 7 2014, 01:59 PM
it would cost her $10,000 to operate. T-Ten thousand?! they charge that much for healing a dog?! I HATE how people think they could just up the amount things cost for it just being a fucking pet.
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Alteiriaa
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May 7 2014, 07:25 PM
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- Naku Nyame
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it would cost her $10,000 to operate.
T-Ten thousand?! they charge that much for healing a dog?! I HATE how people think they could just up the amount things cost for it just being a fucking pet. Vet bills are insane. D: Sorry to hear about the doggie.
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kisspower12
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May 8 2014, 11:38 PM
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Saving Marriages and RE-filtering people as what it means to live.
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hmm. hope I don't get hate for this.
I hate when people don't step up to their responsibilities or complain about something and don't take care of it themselves. I hate the lack of leadership my country has. I fight.
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