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+ Bird-E	Jan 13 2006, 06:07 AM
Dedicated member Posts: 420 Group: Elite Member Member #76 Joined: June 25, 2005	Thanks all. But im really beginning to doubt myself. I mean physically i'm pretty tied down, nothing I cant handle if I get off my lazy a$$, but mentally... A lot of things have taken their toll on me, and im unsure whether or not Id be able to handle the added responsibility. I'm just not a leader... never have been and never will be. Mainly becauses im just not cut out for it. I dunno, I had my doubts when I accepted the position. I really believe that Hacker-X has a lot more potential than me, but id still put in the extra effort to help out in times of need. Its just that... i wont be able to live up to this new status... I'm not really all that good at anything, not right now at least. See, you get those people that have really grasped ideas, and are very knowledgable. Particularly programmers, or people with experience in that field, it just opens up a new plateau of ability. Its like when they have discussions, im like the black sheep, being a wanna-be designer. I'm getting off track here, but I'd really prefer to wait it out for a while, at least until I launch studiohybrid. I've been thinking about starting up studio hybrid for some time now, but barely got anything done. Id really like to get this off my task list, then just help out if needed by zeerus. I dont mean to be dishonering this honour, but like I said, admin or not, I still need time to lay low and work things out for myself... I sorta jumped into it heard first. Im kinda going through a depressive phase right around now. I'm not turning down the position after accepting it, I'm just saying that it may be some time before I come around. My life has to come first, and internet life second.


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